So, it's been a hectic few days here. Can't say they've been hectic "good", either. I *really* wish I could. :(
School has me so stressed out. I have the online class that feels like a 24/7 class, with our online tests and our once-a-week in-class tests. That was stressful enough. But now I have this A&P class I'm taking and it's every day for 6 hours with tests every Monday. I only have to take this one for four weeks but after week 1 I feel like I need to be committed.
The kiddos start school in less than a month (August 1st) and I've been having to get their school stuff bought so we're not rushing around at the end of the month. Plus, for Ashley's cheer team I'm having to help organize a golf tournament on July 23 and that is stressing me B.I.G.T.I.M.E!! There are just not enough of me to go around these days.
On a side note, the stress is really getting to me physically, as it tends to do, and I've noticed a huge increase of my RLS episodes along with an increase in the heart palpitations that often go along with that. They are mostly at night when I'm at home but sometimes happen when I'm in the car or at school. I guess at all the stressful places or doing the stressful things? Without any health insurance, though, I can't really run out to the neurologist and get looked at, kwim? Soon, soon.
I'm pretty sure I've come to a decision on some important issues in my life. Most of them I've been sure about for a few months but then felt kinda wishy-washy. But some things recently came to light that really just spelled it all out to me and reaffirmed what I'd been leaning toward doing all along. I wish I could say that I prayed diligently about it and really felt God's pressure to go one way or the other. I can't. Because I haven't. But I do feel like I'm doing what I should be doing, so that's kinda feeling God's hand on it. *sigh* I just know that I cannot deal with this particular issue for one.more.day. I just can't - I don't have it in me anymore. I feel like I will seriously lose myself in a sea of nothingness if I don't make this change.
Your prayers are definitely coveted...
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Hang in there, sweetie! You'll make it through all of this. ((HUGS))
I don't know what personal issue you are dealing with but I do know feeling like you can't take it one more day. If there is anything that you need to know God's direction in, just ask. He will give you an answer. He is there waiting for you to come to him with it. He is also there to carry you when you can't walk and feel like you can't make it through one more day. Believe me, I have had many of those not so long ago and somehow, he helped me make it through many more days in the situation I didn't think I could live through and now has delivered me to the other side where I can see hope and light. I know he will do the same for you.
I am so sorry you are so stressed out lately, I hope things calm down soon for you! I will be praying for you!
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