Sometimes I just don't understand...

I haven't talked with my dad in a while. We don't talk too much anymore anyway so when I saw he had called my phone twice and then had my sister tell me to call him, I thought something must be wrong.

When I got a hold of Dad, he sounded a bit nervous. He told me that his numbers had come back high from his diabetic doctor (numbers being his WBC count) and that he needed to get back over to his oncologist tomorrow. Numbers being high for Dad meant they were likely over 65,000 since that's what he is normally at these days with his CLL. Well, his numbers were around 160,000. :(

He's had about 2- 2.5 years of not needing any treatment so that's been great for him, but now that treatment is likely looking him in the face, I can tell he's anxious and scared. However, he's got a strong faith in God and knows that's what will carry him through all of this.

For me, though, it's sometimes so hard to look at people with such strong faith, unwavering, and see the kinds of struggles and hardships they face. In your mind you know it's the principalities and powers of darkness that are attacking and you know that God is mightier; but it's hard to have to watch the ones love go through any kind of trial or struggle, especially when there is nothing you can do about it. We serve a mighty God, though, and there's nothing Satan can do that overpowers Him. I have to hold on to that....